HOME

Today we got the green light from Shelby's doctor to head home.  No donor, she's stable; not great, but stable; manageable.  They have complete trust in us that we can take care of her and we feel that way, too.  So, here I sit on my couch.  With a glass of wine (thanks Mom, what a great neighbor!) I am snuggled in the afghan my Mom crocheted for me. Riley and Scott are both studying.  Shelby and Avery are sleeping together in the hospital bed in our living room that home health delivered today.  It was hard as we got closer to home.  Hard knowing we went in to stay until transplant and have come home without that transplant.  My hope and faith in it coming are waivering.  I'll just be honest.  They are.  Forty days in Chicago.  40...and nothing.  At the top of the list for 50 days...and nothing.  Three living donors are no-go's.  Very frustrating.

I'm looking at this time home as a time to recharge our spirits.  This will only be temporary.  I pray within the month she gets her transplant.  That puts her at at least 2 months recovering...maybe, just maybe she'll be able to go back to school by mid-April.  That just about shoots her entire 4th grade year!  I want to get back to living, not treading.  This patience stuff is hard right now.  God is getting earfuls from me :-)

Tonight I'm tired, happy, overwhelmed, yet content.  We need help with meals, Avery play dates, Riley running, etc.  Just because I am home does not mean I can do everything.  Shelby's care will still take up quite a bit of my time and Scott is already up to his eyeballs in nursing school work.  Please send me an e-mail (the best way to get a hold of me) if you can help out with any of the above-mentioned at pnutsmom76@yahoo.com.  Thank you.  Please continue to pray that some family, in their deepest time of sorrow,  has the strength to say "Yes" to organ donation.

I'm too tired to put captions on all these, but they're basically all the medical supplies we have now, reuniting pics and pics of all the stuff we had to move home.